Hooooookayyyyy, so.
It's been forever since I posted, but life has been amazingly busy/lovely/incredible/emotional/wonderful over the holidays and I chose to spend time with my fam/bf/friends instead of bloggin' (plus we don't have wireless at home). Anyway, it feels good to be back to getting my ideas down and out and I hope that I'll have more time/set aside more time to do a post. I don't know how much I can write tonight before my computer dies (one of the many things on my to-do list for tomorrow: get a 3 prong outlet adapter so I can charge my computer!) or I fall asleep, but I'ma give it a shot.
I don't really know exactly where to start, because I have so many thoughts bouncing around in my head and so much has happened over Christmas break that it's hard to narrow it down. I guess I'll just start with today....
Waking up this morning knowing that it would be the last time I was in Georgia for a while felt really weird. It was kind of like I knew that I only had part of the day to spend at home, but I didn't quite know what to do with the last few hours because I guess I was afraid of wasting them, or something crazy like that. I really am not at all good at good-byes because I tend to draw them out, delaying the moment that I have to let go of someone's hand or stop hugging them. I really am trying to get better (promise!), but I really just want to soak in every moment so that I can remember every detail in times of homesickness or when I miss someone.
My family and I went to church together this morning and heard a fantastic message, which really helped me put things in perspective and know my direction going into this uncharted territory of interning. Our pastor, Dr. Sheila Bookout, spoke of Jesus' baptism and the importance of remembering the significance of our own baptisms, whether as a formal ceremony as child, adolescent, or adult or a simply claiming our place as children of God. It was definitely a message that I needed to hear and helped remind me about the purpose behind all of the challenges and opportunities in my life. I often question/worry about where I am in my life and if I'm doing the "right" things. Lately I haven't been feeling as "full" and joyous as usually, probably at least partly due to the stresses of moving 2 states away, finding a sub-leaser since the first one bailed, and realizing that I have to say goodbye to the most important people in my life. But after today's service I feel renewed in spirit and direction. I know that while there are a lot of unknowns about my internship, in the end I am called to a greater cause that is part of a bigger plan to develop and strengthen me in the fullness of life.
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